Thursday, October 30, 2008

又有新玩具

iPhone 16GB - White

呢份玩具其實都玩左兩個星期la(需然佢係來得唔合時)但係無論點我都好想係呢到多謝你,我知你真係對我好好,需然寶寶既離開對你來講都係一件唔容易放低既事,但你仲因為咁送呢份禮物比我,真係好........都唔知點講好;_;

講返部電話先,都幾好用呀,需然我未JailBreak, 用唔晒佢既function,但係app store裡面既app都夠用,就算要比錢既都唔係好貴,支持吓正版la。

Thursday, October 23, 2008

媽媽給肥貓的信

寶寶:

媽媽好掛住你,每日返到屋企再見唔到你la,現在我要一個人睇電視、雪櫃頂再唔會有你個肚仔阻住、電視前面再唔會有你呢個大玻璃係到洗白白、再唔可以同你玩捉迷藏、更加唔可以同你瞓覺。

有時起身同返到屋企都會好不自覺想走去你成日瞓既地方,諗住你會係個到,但係......
希望你明白媽媽送你走並唔代表我唔愛你,我只係唔想你咁辛苦,你唔好嬲我呀!

Love you forever
媽媽



沒有寶寶的日子 - 第六日

Wednesday, October 22, 2008

左右做人難

正所為"家家有本難念的經",唉!
個個都一把年幾LA, 整日為小事嘈,為咩?
"一個衰唔晒,兩個好唔埋" 我都唔知點先可以平息今次戰火!
其實現在個環境都算好好LA,有屋住,身體健健康康,無咩大毛病,
但係點解成日都為小事發脾氣呢?

沒有寶寶的日子 - 第五天

Sunday, October 19, 2008

爸爸給肥貓的信


Dear Son,


From the day your mother & me knew you are a FIV positive, we have been giving our best to keep you in the highest living quality. However, as we all know, everything that has a beginning has an end, and it seems your end has come. Modern technology can only delay your final day, but hopelessly, it cannot reduce the pain of our separation.
I can never ever forget the moment of the final injection; it really broke my heard, shocked my brain and drained my soul. I was totally collapsed and my tear was unstoppable. Why? Why a single injection can take your life so easy but cannot save you from suffering? What the fuck with human technology? We even can send a man to the moon in 30years ago but can’t do a shit to a micro virus?
It is no fairy tale. In this ruthless world, life is a torture for the good, as you have to watch your friends, family and beloved suffering, deteriorating and eventually eradicated. Helplessly, you can do nothing about it. But for the evil, life is a fun game because your foes and enemies will suffer, deteriorated, and eradicated without your single effort.
The pain of seeing you suffering is too deep that I would rather become an evil to get rid of my pain; my morale was long gone when your soul is fade away. We can never know sending you to the final injection is the right thing to do or not, but one thing is certain, we both love you from our bottom of the heart and you did the same to us. God may take you away from us but he can never ever take out our memory, the days that we love each other, the days that we had fun.
We hope that you have no regret to become our son and had a happy life. We just want you to know how damn hard we feel when you passed away, and how deep we love you. The feeling is too strong that I cannot express in any kind of language. Please rest in peace and hope we can meet again in somewhere of the future.

Love you forever
From your Father
Chun Pong, Chan
19 Oct 2008

沒有寶寶的日子 - 第二天

Saturday, October 18, 2008

肥貓再見

肥貓既病情特變,愛滋病的病菌已經入左骨髓,紅血蛋白已經跌到得返10.4(正常為20﹣37)既係嚴重貧血,體溫過低,仲有佢已經無能力行路同失禁,醫生都提過如果紅血蛋白得返10%時,救得返既機會係,所以我好快就決定﹣送佢走。

我親眼睇住醫生替佢打針,見到佢唔係好想走既時候,個心都好痛,但係就算我呢刻留佢係到,佢都過唔到明天,我只好忍心送佢走,但係我個心真係好好好好痛,現在好掛住佢,好懷念佢既味道,佢既呼吸,同佢溫暖既身軀......

寶寶,再見la!

沒有寶寶的日子 - 第一天

Thursday, October 16, 2008

肥貓生病4


呢幾日見到肥貓佢一日比一日瘦, 病情反覆, 有時見到佢係到發呆, 真係好想知佢心裡面諗緊咩, 睇住佢真係好心痛!

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媽媽: "肥寶仔, 你可唔可以唔死呀?"
肥寶仔: "媽媽, 我總會有走0既一日, 現在只係早少少上路.
不必為我傷心難過, 因為有一天我地會再相遇. "

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

肥貓生病3

報告終於都出左,佢真係愛滋病發第一期,因為報告話呢隻病毒係好普通既細菌,之前食個幾隻抗生素應該係可以殺到,但現在唔得,咁代表佢既愛滋病開始活躍,而我地可以做既野係﹣
只係不停咁食抗生素換佢多一日得一日。真係覺得好無奈,因為好似睇住佢死都無野可以做到,唉!

現在唯一可以做既係多D陪佢,行埋最後呢段路。

Thursday, October 09, 2008

肥貓,我愛你!

呢幾日不停咁睇好多關於FIV「貓愛滋病」既資料,唔睇都好D,睇得多反而仲擔心, 因為好多都話“有些貓隻在發病初期會出現淋巴腺腫脹發燒、貧血或腹瀉的現象“ 見到咁我好相信佢好大機會真係發病,但係個報告一日未出,一日都唔知佢係咪唔會好返。就算今次佢可以好得返,淋巴腺可以消腫都好,佢既免疫系統都已經出現問題,過到今次都怕過唔到下次。唉!呢個係我最唔想見到。

現在最難過係–等報告出呢段時間,個心好想有一個希望,但又好怕呢個希望越大失望會越大,所以唔敢諗,唔敢想,唔敢有希望。

寶寶,媽媽真係好愛你!

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

肥貓生病2


之前講過,無錯肥病個驗血報告係無事,但係佢既病況都未見有好轉,相反仲好似差左,真係好擔心,現在又要等第二個報告,睇下佢有無邊種藥可以對抗佢現在個隻病菌,但係呢段時間只可以靠半粒藥丸控制住。我,只可以希望佢真係可以大步走過。