爸爸給肥貓的信

Dear Son,


From the day your mother & me knew you are a FIV positive, we have been giving our best to keep you in the highest living quality. However, as we all know, everything that has a beginning has an end, and it seems your end has come. Modern technology can only delay your final day, but hopelessly, it cannot reduce the pain of our separation.
I can never ever forget the moment of the final injection; it really broke my heard, shocked my brain and drained my soul. I was totally collapsed and my tear was unstoppable. Why? Why a single injection can take your life so easy but cannot save you from suffering? What the fuck with human technology? We even can send a man to the moon in 30years ago but can’t do a shit to a micro virus?
It is no fairy tale. In this ruthless world, life is a torture for the good, as you have to watch your friends, family and beloved suffering, deteriorating and eventually eradicated. Helplessly, you can do nothing about it. But for the evil, life is a fun game because your foes and enemies will suffer, deteriorated, and eradicated without your single effort.
The pain of seeing you suffering is too deep that I would rather become an evil to get rid of my pain; my morale was long gone when your soul is fade away. We can never know sending you to the final injection is the right thing to do or not, but one thing is certain, we both love you from our bottom of the heart and you did the same to us. God may take you away from us but he can never ever take out our memory, the days that we love each other, the days that we had fun.
We hope that you have no regret to become our son and had a happy life. We just want you to know how damn hard we feel when you passed away, and how deep we love you. The feeling is too strong that I cannot express in any kind of language. Please rest in peace and hope we can meet again in somewhere of the future.

Love you forever
From your Father
Chun Pong, Chan
19 Oct 2008

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