再度懷念肥貓

肥貓,

很掛念你! 很想跟你一起, 沒有你的日子真的比我想像中難過.


沒有寶寶的日子 - 第十八日

又有新玩具

iPhone 16GB - White

呢份玩具其實都玩左兩個星期la（需然佢係來得唔合時）但係無論點我都好想係呢到多謝你，我知你真係對我好好，需然寶寶既離開對你來講都係一件唔容易放低既事，但你仲因為咁送呢份禮物比我，真係好........都唔知點講好;_;

講返部電話先，都幾好用呀，需然我未JailBreak,　用唔晒佢既function，但係app store裡面既app都夠用，就算要比錢既都唔係好貴，支持吓正版la。

媽媽給肥貓的信

寶寶：

媽媽好掛住你，每日返到屋企再見唔到你la，現在我要一個人睇電視、雪櫃頂再唔會有你個肚仔阻住、電視前面再唔會有你呢個大玻璃係到洗白白、再唔可以同你玩捉迷藏、更加唔可以同你瞓覺。

有時起身同返到屋企都會好不自覺想走去你成日瞓既地方，諗住你會係個到，但係......
希望你明白媽媽送你走並唔代表我唔愛你，我只係唔想你咁辛苦，你唔好嬲我呀！

Love you forever
媽媽



沒有寶寶的日子 - 第六日

左右做人難

正所為"家家有本難念的經",唉！
個個都一把年幾ＬＡ, 整日為小事嘈,為咩？
"一個衰唔晒,兩個好唔埋" 我都唔知點先可以平息今次戰火！
其實現在個環境都算好好ＬＡ，有屋住，身體健健康康，無咩大毛病，
但係點解成日都為小事發脾氣呢？

沒有寶寶的日子 - 第五天

爸爸給肥貓的信

Dear Son,


From the day your mother & me knew you are a FIV positive, we have been giving our best to keep you in the highest living quality. However, as we all know, everything that has a beginning has an end, and it seems your end has come. Modern technology can only delay your final day, but hopelessly, it cannot reduce the pain of our separation.
I can never ever forget the moment of the final injection; it really broke my heard, shocked my brain and drained my soul. I was totally collapsed and my tear was unstoppable. Why? Why a single injection can take your life so easy but cannot save you from suffering? What the fuck with human technology? We even can send a man to the moon in 30years ago but can’t do a shit to a micro virus?
It is no fairy tale. In this ruthless world, life is a torture for the good, as you have to watch your friends, family and beloved suffering, deteriorating and eventually eradicated. Helplessly, you can do nothing about it. But for the evil, life is a fun game because your foes and enemies will suffer, deteriorated, and eradicated without your single effort.
The pain of seeing you suffering is too deep that I would rather become an evil to get rid of my pain; my morale was long gone when your soul is fade away. We can never know sending you to the final injection is the right thing to do or not, but one thing is certain, we both love you from our bottom of the heart and you did the same to us. God may take you away from us but he can never ever take out our memory, the days that we love each other, the days that we had fun.
We hope that you have no regret to become our son and had a happy life. We just want you to know how damn hard we feel when you passed away, and how deep we love you. The feeling is too strong that I cannot express in any kind of language. Please rest in peace and hope we can meet again in somewhere of the future.

Love you forever
From your Father
Chun Pong, Chan
19 Oct 2008

沒有寶寶的日子 - 第二天

肥貓再見

肥貓既病情特變，愛滋病的病菌已經入左骨髓，紅血蛋白已經跌到得返10.4（正常為２０﹣３７）既係嚴重貧血，體溫過低，仲有佢已經無能力行路同失禁，醫生都提過如果紅血蛋白得返10%時，救得返既機會係零，所以我好快就決定﹣送佢走。

我親眼睇住醫生替佢打針，見到佢唔係好想走既時候，個心都好痛，但係就算我呢刻留佢係到，佢都過唔到明天，我只好忍心送佢走，但係我個心真係好好好好痛，現在好掛住佢，好懷念佢既味道，佢既呼吸，同佢溫暖既身軀......

寶寶，再見la！

沒有寶寶的日子 - 第一天

肥貓生病4

呢幾日見到肥貓佢一日比一日瘦, 病情反覆, 有時見到佢係到發呆, 真係好想知佢心裡面諗緊咩, 睇住佢真係好心痛!

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媽媽: "肥寶仔, 你可唔可以唔死呀?"
肥寶仔: "媽媽, 我總會有走0既一日, 現在只係早少少上路.
不必為我傷心難過, 因為有一天我地會再相遇. "

肥貓生病3

報告終於都出左，佢真係愛滋病發第一期，因為報告話呢隻病毒係好普通既細菌，之前食個幾隻抗生素應該係可以殺到，但現在唔得，咁代表佢既愛滋病開始活躍，而我地可以做既野係﹣無
只係不停咁食抗生素換佢多一日得一日。真係覺得好無奈，因為好似睇住佢死都無野可以做到，唉！

現在唯一可以做既係多Ｄ陪佢，行埋最後呢段路。

肥貓，我愛你！

呢幾日不停咁睇好多關於FIV「貓愛滋病」既資料，唔睇都好Ｄ，睇得多反而仲擔心, 因為好多都話“有些貓隻在發病初期會出現淋巴腺腫脹、發燒、貧血或腹瀉的現象“ 見到咁我好相信佢好大機會真係發病，但係個報告一日未出，一日都唔知佢係咪唔會好返。就算今次佢可以好得返，淋巴腺可以消腫都好，佢既免疫系統都已經出現問題，過到今次都怕過唔到下次。唉！呢個係我最唔想見到。

現在最難過係–等報告出呢段時間，個心好想有一個希望，但又好怕呢個希望越大失望會越大，所以唔敢諗,唔敢想,唔敢有希望。

寶寶，媽媽真係好愛你！

肥貓生病２

之前講過，無錯肥病個驗血報告係無事，但係佢既病況都未見有好轉，相反仲好似差左，真係好擔心，現在又要等第二個報告，睇下佢有無邊種藥可以對抗佢現在個隻病菌，但係呢段時間只可以靠半粒藥丸控制住。我，只可以希望佢真係可以大步走過。

肥貓生病

肥貓仔又生病，病足三個月都未好過，搞到要抽血睇下係咪真係病發，不過都好好彩無事，
希望今次真係可以好返，貓體健康

閒事

新工都返左一段時間la，都係時候做個總結：
工作上都算係咁la，講真份份工都係一樣，但係呢到算係咁，有返個真係有料既老細，唔係吹水囉，做既野都係咁la，同事都好好，個個都有講有笑，終於都有份似樣d既工，不過所有野都係等我讀完書再作打算，如果可以的話真係好想讀到個學位，咁就無憾。

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唔知係咪人大左，對身邊既事都無咩特別感覺，睇住身邊既同學一個一個結婚生仔（係佢地眼中可能係一件快樂事，係人生必要既一個階段咁）但係我可能比較悲觀，總係覺得現在呢個世界已經去到一個無可救的時候，再者地球已經比人類污染晒，無必要再加害呢個地球多d。

新玩具

今期新玩伴，哈哈

新開始

不知不覺返左一個星期, 仲要其中一日因為八號風球放多左日假, 但整體都算係一個好地方.
原因有兩個 :
1. 老細/公司都係好有原則/rule, 唔會因為人地比多幾個錢就卑躬屈膝 (唔會好似以前個老細咁),
呢一點係我最欣賞
2. 老闆真係有料, 唔係吹水

呢到會係我人生既一個轉變點

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明天要考試, 但係我咩都未溫過, 就連最尾份功課都未做好, 哈!

人生...又再次充滿希望

連日來自己嚇自己既現象, 今日咩都掃走晒la, 我終於都入到我想入的公司, 之但係入到去可能係另一回事, 但係都好過一個機會都無呀!!
呢份工比之前個幾份都算係最好(就門面同有website呢吓已經係無得頂), 一句講晒, 我會做好呢份工